So, where have I been YET AGAIN?! Off carrying a baby, taking baby classes, reading pregnancy books, prenatal yoga, moving twice, giving birth to a baby 2 weeks early without a hospital bag or clean baby clothing, starting contractions on the day my husband had his gallbladder removed after months of dealing with him in pain. Do you want to hear the rest? Didn't think so...
Let me tell you something, it is not easy being pregnant, not so much the carrying the baby part (although that is an entire book on its own...) it's all the pressure society places on you. I worked all the way up until contractions began and did everything I could to keep my house in order. And I didn't just work normally, I worked constantly paranoid everything would fall apart when I left BUT I have learned no one is indispensable. How I wished in the USA women would be given the right to take 2 months off before the baby arrives to prepare and rest because you will NEVER rest again. How I wished maternity leave was at least 6 months and paid at least partially, how I wished flex time and working from home was an option. No, we get none of these things, yet I must admit I'm still blessed that I received 2 paid weeks and 4 weeks partially paid during my 16 week leave. I return next Friday (4/26) and I'm so paranoid for leaving my little one for 12 hours a day. I'm afraid of all I'm going to miss. Again, going back to my original idea, if we had more work options, I wouldn't miss so much of the day and wouldn't feel bad. I've been able to be away for 6 hours and be fine until the 5 hour mark hits and then I get antsy. As soon as I'll be getting home from work I'll be placing my little one straight into his bath, nurse him and put him to bed.
What have we all been through post-partum you ask?
- 2 bouts of mastitis (google it, it's CRAPPY) & 24 days of antibiotics (healed now)
- tongue tie that wasn't fixed for 4 weeks (fixed!)
- weaning off of a nipple shield (done)
- still working on acid reflux
- dealing with gas that wakes up my little man - not eating any dairy, chocolate, nuts, citrus, garlic
- dealing with low milk supply (finally we're on the same page)
- the "H" post pushing out a baby (after using very sexy suppositories, all bueno now)
- healing of an episiotomy (all bueno now)
- still dealing with patchy red itchy skin ALL OVER - it doesn't let me sleep
- searching for a home (done!)
- dealing with a newborn with a sick hubby and then sick family (everyone is better now, PTL!)
Now I'm dealing with packing to move yet again for a 3rd time in less than a year and going back to work. The home however is much more than I truly expected, can we say double walk in closets?! I can also report my little man is a dream. I adore him and didn't really think I'd be in so much love. It's amazing what a little human can make you feel. When we took him for his 2 month doctor appointment and shots I truly did not expect to be phased...OMG...I cried more than he did, he did cry like crazy but was over it pretty quickly, but when he was poked 4 times and he looked at me with his face questioning me as to why I was allowing him to be hurt I broke down and cried like someone had died. My hubby thinks I'm a wussy. Sadly I also cried when he was circumcised and when he had his frenulum clipped. I don't think I'm a wussy, I'm just a mom now.
If you missed all my pregnancy pictures, they're all up on my instagram page and I will continue to post up more that I have missed (all the way up until a couple days before labor).
So there, there's my latest update.
Here's a few shots of my little man for his 3 week newborn photoshoot, enjoy!
If anyone has any mommy or pregnancy questions (even breastfeeding), feel free to email me directly! aPetiteDiva at gmail dot com
BTW - what will everyone do now that google reader is being discontinued?!